Once an ACSian–Always an ACSian

as im typing this…

its 1st Nov already!

that means..3 more days!

6 more days to be exact!

i cant wait 4 this whole exam thing 2 end then its freedom!

for now…
JIAYOU JIAYOU!

I used think that loving you was never wrong
But today, you make me feel so lost.
The promise before, right or wrong
Has made me realised the cost.
How am I supposed to salvage this lost love?

Your life before I came seemed much better.
Even though I am hurt, because love made me weak
The sacrifices I made have gone unnoticed.
The pain in my heart, can you ever understand?
What should I do to prevent such heartache…..

I love you but my Love is tough, my Love feels lonely
Until there is no turning back.
I feel so helpless, my heart is in pain, my tears not holding back
This is how you repay my love for you.

I love you but my Love is tough, my Love feels silly
Until there is no dreams left.
I see the cruelty in you, watching as you leave, yet you did not care
Maybe, it would not matter if I am left alone.

Your life before I came seemed much better.
Even though I am hurt, because love made me weak
The sacrifices I made have gone unnoticed.
The pain in my heart, can you ever understand?
What should I do to prevent such heartache…..

I love you but my Love is tough, my Love feels lonely
Until there is no turning back.
I feel so helpless, my heart is in pain, my tears not holding back
This is how you repay my love for you.

I love you but my Love is tough, my Love feels silly
Until there is no dreams left.
I see the cruelty in you, watching as you leave, yet you did not care
Maybe, it would not matter if I am left alone.

 

sian…damn hard 2 study alone! tough times!

cant wait 2 get back 2 sch and study wid other ppl!

been spamming jay chou’s song e whole day! or shld i say been soaking myself in jay chou music?

well..it helps me 2 destress…so haha!

the power of music! believe it! 

managed to finish compiling definitions and laws for physics (as promised guys!) =)

guess im done for e day! Yawnz… 

was supposed to have history lesson in school 2day but tsaryong had some viral fever. nonetheless i still went to school hoping to find ppl i can study with. well…i found steven, william and songyeong =) haha! we did study abit until (i cant remember who) mentioned prom. that’s when trouble comes! i realised that i really need 2 get pants and shoes for prom cuz wadever i hav now is definitely not presentable. at least i got my top pieces settled =)

had a rather lengthy talk on msn with sean yesterday. it was a very sudden feeling but i had a revelation that maybe chemical engineering is not wad i REALLY wanted! my dream as a child was always to be a doctor. a cardiologist to be exact. well..i hav a choice now since i can go into King’s College medicine without a biology background but that would mean i cannot get into my dream school. maybe e fact that im dying to go into imperial college is causing harm to my future as i MAY not enjoy chemical engineering after all. but it seems that i do hav a certain passion for it since i loved dealing with chemicals and engineering related stuff since sec2. well…headache!

and recently i have this feeling that im e ONLY one who is looking forward to National Service. although i am in no position to question ppl’s thinking, i juz cant understand that y there are some people who are trying to so hard to get themselves downgraded to PES C juz so that they can slack off their 2 years in NS. well…it’s juz my opinion. looks like ill be e ONLY one amongst my friends to really enjoy NS. maybe it is becuz i hav a goal in mind…which gives me that extra passion and motivation. well..u may ask…my goal is to get into Officer Cadet School and win the Sword-Of-Honour.

Study Study Study! 

When you have to look away
When you don’t have much to say
That’s when I love you
I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That’s when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget I’m waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway

Here’s my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Thats when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart can’t get enough
That’s when I love you,
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
That’s when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can’t quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That’s when I love you
I love you, more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

Here’s my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Thats when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what

That’s when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart can’t get enough
That’s when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

i know i shouldnt be spending time here

but…
i would like to take this opportunity to thank those who have been supporting me and helping me through this difficult time.

well…
1) my classmates and teachers
2) some of my ex-npcc friends
3) my lifesaving coach
4) my other friends (especially those who specially messaged me)

THANKS PPL! ur well wishes and support will be remembered!

For the record: 13 more days! 

as u hav probably noticed by now…my posts are rather random and i havent been blogging daily =(

2 reasons:
1) either i cant be bothered 2 blog
2) i really dunno wad i shld blog abt

havent been resting enough lately…considering that i wake up 6-7am daily and ill study till 5-6pm before having heading home for dinner then ill continue studying again till 10-11pm. i really feel like giving up! guess im nt that mentally strong after all… thats probably y 2nite i wun be touching my books cuz i really need 2 rest and recharge my mental health before i suffer frm mental breakdown!

3 more weeks (including this week) 2 go..press on! 

was watching movies on my computer last night when my whole house suddenly had a blackout! realised that the main fused got blown…so i had walk ard in the dark…slp without aircon nor fan! it was a rather interesting experience i would say =)

luckily the PUB ppl came in e afternoon to fix it…if not i probably wun be able 2 post this! haha!

and looks like Jay Chou’s new album is finally released! yay! i cant stop listening to it…its really one of his best albums! Songs like 給我一首歌的時間 Give Me The Time Of A Song and 說好的幸福呢 Where Is The Blissfulness We Have Promised On? really captures ur attention as u listen to them.

been feeling good these day abt my preparations for e IB exams! hope i can continue like this 4 e next 3 weeks…so at least i wun lose my motivation or whatsoever! Jiayou!