AAR was such a waste of time (in my opinion)
rushed down to Home Team Academy for NPCC AAR…reached abt 5.30pm…got changed…in e end waited till almost 6.15pm before things were getting started…haiz…wasted $16 juz like that…should hav juz taken public transport if i knew things were 2 start so late…
had a photo shoot which was probably the most fun thing that happened 2day =) then went back 2 Everest Room 4 e actual AAR…which lasted nearly 1hr 30mins…and half e time was spent raising common sense issues =( sry ar…i nt trying 2 shoot anyone or insult anyone…but i felt that most points that were brough up were kinda common sense and it can be solved very easily…furthermore…some points were already brought up during the informal AAR so y bother bringing it up again…this juz shows how disorganised NPCC is…argh =( such a waste of my time…
so the whole time i was juz sitting there kinda stoning…and feeling rather moody and sleepy…which made things worse cuz i was rather upset that i had 2 abandon my frisbee teammates to come 4 this time-wasting session =( sry guys 4 nt going training 2day…hope it din affect e team much =) considering the fact that i was rather pissed when i got 2 hta…i guessed i din really show it out…so it wun affect the whole AAR and everybody else in e room..which is a good thing after all…
by the time we wrapped up everything and got changed..ready 2 leave…it was nearly 9pm already…and considering that i hav my own work 2 do and many other stuffs…i was feeling really moody and felt like juz being alone 4 a moment =( so when every1 decided 2 go 4 dinner…i was having 2nd thoughts until alvin managed 2 persuade me…so in e end…i still went 4 dinner but i spent 75% of e time nt communicating wid anybody…juz sitting there eating wid one hand…trying 2 look normal and feel normal…although i keep telling myself that i should be 4get abt wad has happened..but i guess i probably hide my feelings quite badly…
haiz…now that im home…i feel so down…and sleepy…but i guess life goes on…so hope ill be back 2 normal 2mr =)
A person who lies to himself is lonely
